Too Long

It has been entirely too long since my last post. No excuses, just have not done so. Things are going well considering the state of the economy. As of yet I have not felt the deep effects of what is going on, my income is still in tact for now and I am fortunate to be able to pay my bills. Not all can say that so I consider myself blessed.

I am also blessed to have a wonderful man in my life, he treats me well and is a kind, loving, compassionate, and passionate man. He has a great big heart and is a joy to be around.

I will continue to update this blog from time to time. Take care and have a blessed day.

Lisa Jan 2006 

Little Did I Know

Little Did I Know

I hugged you as I left,
As I looked back there you were,
Waving to me, watching me go,
As I drove off that night,

Little did I know.

I sensed some thing different,
Although the tenderness still there,
Somehow things had changed,
Yet you barely let it show,

Little did I know.

Hours passed, turned into days,
All I wanted was a call,
Maybe just a short note,
A hello from my love,

Little did I know.

The words you said,
The things you wrote,
I had no idea how you felt,
I thought it would all work out,

Little did I know.

Oh how it all turned around,
The way things were with us,
Not knowing that was the last,
The last I would feel your touch.

Oh, Little did I know.

LN 1/17/06

This is kinda me, I think.

Your Life Path Number is 8

Your purpose in life is to help others succeed You are both a natural leader and a natural success. You are also a great judge of character.You have a head for business and finance. You know how to make money.A great visionary, you can see gold where other people see nothing. In love, you are very generous - with gifts, time, and guidance. You love to inspire people, but it can be frustrating when they don't understand your vision.Great success comes easily for you. But so does great failure, as you are very reckless.You are confident, and sometimes this confidence borders on arrogance.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Good Women Finish Last

You know are men and women so different? I think Not! We both get stuck in bad situations, we both can be attracted to someone who can't seem to get their shit together, we both can get played, and we both can have issues and baggage. We are all seeking the same thing... "Happiness". Sometimes that happiness comes in the form of a friend, a lover, being single, going out, or even staying home, our kids or our family. Honestly I think true happiness has to come from within. I think too many people don't think they deserve happiness, or do not allow themselves to be happy. Really deep down we all want to be loved by someone, but is it really necessary for happiness. I wonder sometimes and does anyone let down their guard enough to really achieve that love. You know how many times I have heard a man say "women don't want nice guys" "they want bad boys", well you know I have come to the conclusion that the same is true for men, they say they want a "good woman" but do they really? Would they even know a Good Woman if she was right there next to them. I'm thinking no, not really. I'm not sure what it is they want but if they Really wanted a good woman, why then are the "good" women still alone. Its all bullshit if you ask me. All the issues, and baggage, and excuses.... All bullshit, I see more self sabotage in relationships. I mean come on guys, what do we have to do. Also what is all this "I have nothing to offer" who said we want you to offer us anything? Can't you just enjoy one another, have a good time and let things happen and fall into place. Hell believe me by now at our age if we are alone and managing to pay our bills without you, then what makes you think that you have to offer us anything except your heart. To all of you who have been heartbroken, screwed over, cheated on, kicked to the curb or anything else that might have happened in your life can you stop judging me by the ones who did that to you and judge me on my own merit....I mean honestly if I haven't done you wrong can you please give me the benefit of the doubt and assume that I wont do that to you. Whew not sure where that came from but I think I feel better now that its out. So they say nice guys finish last....Well just remember so do Good Women.

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,even to the dull and ignorant;they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit.If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble;it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.Neither be cynical about love;for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,gracefully surrendering the things of youth.Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universeno less than the trees and the stars;you have a right to be here.And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann © 1927, 1954 All Rights Reserved.